Kianna Marie

Every time i think of you… i wince 

wingsandteeth:

The songs of a life I once knew

Will never leave me

I sing them constantly

Sometimes in my head

Other times in my heart

I hum the rhythm of my memories

Because sometimes singing

Makes the pain go away

sleeplesslydreaming:

One day,

It will all make sense.

They say your actions define who you are,

But, I believe that the actions of others

Can alter everything.

One broken heart

Can leave you gaurded

A single stab in the back,

Can make you hateful.

My advice to you,

Live your life,

Don’t give up easily

You’ll make it.

(via sleeplesslydreaming-deactivated)

I often wonder how… How could you do something like this to me… How could you forget about all the memories.. all the hugs… the kisses… the whispers… the magic… the talks… the looks… all the things that made our relationship what it was. I think about it every day. I understand you are scared. Scared that i might run again. Scared that i will hurt you again. The truth is i was scared, i was scared that this was all too serious and naturally i ran away from you. You were perfect. You were everything i ever wanted. You were mine. I loved you. I just wasn’t used to being loved. It was foreign and i didn’t know how to handle it so i pushed you away. Not a day goes by that i don’t regret doing that. Because i lost you. I lost all of you. I can never get you back. It makes me sick to my stomach every time i think that if i had acted differently you just might still be mine. You just might still be in my arms right where you should be. But your gone. And i wish that you weren’t. I love you but i also hate you for not wanting me back when i came crawling back begging you. For one last chance. I am so sorry for all that i have done to make you loath me indefinitely. I dream about you every night and what we could have been if i wasn’t so damn scared. There really isn’t anyone else out there for me. Because it was always you. It always will be you. Im sorry. And im sorry i ever loved you. So it wouldn’t hurt so bad writing all my thoughts i have about you.